Let’s Talk This Over, It’s Not Like We’re Dead

Sittin‘ on the bed alone, staring at the phone…
He wasn’t...

Basically, I scared myself a little last night. It wasn’t anything that bad, really… It’s just I realised I don’t sound like my ‘usual self’. The way I think and the way I… I dunno. I’ve somehow become serious. And one of my very good friends agreed with me about it. When the hell did I get serious? I. Wasn’t. Meant. To. Grow. Up.

I feel cheated. Fuck you, time. Fuck you, thinking about the future. Fuck it.

I don’t want any of it if I’m like this. See here kids, this is what a heavy heart full of worry, a wallet full of nothing and over thinking gets you.

I want my old life back.

Over and out.

P.S. On a completely different note I’m going through an Avril phase again. Man, that girl can write amazing lyrics…

I coulda been the one you noticed
I coulda been all over you
I coulda been like all the others
Is that what I’m supposed to do?

It woulda been really stupid,
If I woulda went home with you
To give you everything you wanted
It woulda been way too soon

I try to be sensitive
I try to be tough
I try to walk away,
I try to be innocent
I try to be rough
But I just wanna play

You’re my daydream, you know that I’ve been thinking about you lately
And everytime I look at you I can’t explain how I feel insane