I’ve Broken Both My Legs Falling For You

I am preparing for a trip away, to clear the air. To clear my mind.
I’m scared of becoming just like you.
Even though it’s not as if we’re alike enough already.

I wore a stupid get-up on Friday to the breakfast. My black dress and black heel/sandal’s. Its not as if I tried, but everybody was like – ‘Jess, you’re showing us all up!’ The truth is that I seem to have worn two holes in my fave (and only) pair of jeans. So I couldn’t wear them, as much as I wanted to be able to and just blend in. Anyway, because of my shoes being crappy and not blending-in’able I took them off. There was glass outside of the scout hall. My feet got cut up pretty bad. Good one Jess. -.-”

I had a party thing after the breakfast. It was good. We swam, ate fresh fruit from the Central Markets and sunbaked. After the main event, everybody but Andrew, Fin, Jay and Steve were left. So I watched Wall-E with a bunch of guys. It was the first time I’d seen it properly, and I was ‘Awww’ing’ every 10 seconds, and by the end of it every one of them had a cheesy grin on their face. It was so cute!

Today was boring. I did homework and worried all day. I’m so paranoid. I don’t like feeling like I’m missing out on something. Like people are lying to me, pretending, avoiding me, holding back.

With that said, I’m going to sleep. Dreams are far better than real life at the moment.

Over and out.