Sorry James, You Won’t Find Me Here

Did you forget that I was even alive?
Did you forget everything we ever had?
Did you forget… Did you forget about me?

Did you regret ever standing by my side?
Did you forget what we were feeling inside?
Now I’m left to forget… about us.

But somewhere we went wrong, we were once so strong.
Our love is like a song, you can’t forget it.

So now I guess this is where we have to stand.
Did you regret ever holding my hand?
Never again… Please don’t forget… Don’t forget.

We had it all… We were just about to fall…
Even more in love than we were before.
I won’t forget… I won’t forget… About us.

But somewhere we went wrong, we were once so strong.
Our love is like a song, you can’t forget it.

Somewhere we went wrong, we were once so strong.
Our love is like a song, you can’t forget it at all.

And at last all the pictures have been burned.
And all the past is just a lesson that we’ve learned.
I won’t forget… I won’t forget… About us.

But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song, but you won’t sing along.
You’ve forgotten… About us.

- Don’t Forget by Demi Lovato

I’m not usually a top 40 pop kinda girl, but I found this song today and it really struck a chord.

So here’s the list. My favourite stuff:

♥ Fettuccine Carbonara
♥ Supernatural
♥ Paul Rudd
♥ Henry the Hermit Crab
♥ Understated blush
♥ Cartwheels
♥ Photos of my brother in drag
♥ UFO lamps
♥ Piggy banks
♥ Martini glasses
♥ Mix-tapes
♥ Socks
♥ Powerpuff girls
♥ Remotes

Over and out.

Tell Me What Do You Think You See?

Honestly, I don’t think what I write is actually that interesting… or worth reading for that matter. But hey, whatever tickles your fancy. If you just read that whole sentence could you leave a comment at the end of this post? Just a little shout out, saying who you are or just what you think…

Anyway, on to more riveting stuff: I think my hermit crab is suicidal. He keeps trying to walk off the edge of my desk. D: Like a small child in some ways. I need to always be watching him. So, you’d never guess! He’s actually still alive.

I just went to see a movie tonight with Miss Amelia and Miss Emily, at the horrible Marion shopping centre. The movie was wonderful. It was two hours of the hardest I’ve laughed in a lonnnnnng time. It is called I Love You, Man. It stars Paul Rudd (Clueless/Knocked Up) and Jason Segel (Forgetting Sarah Marshall/Knocked Up). I’m slapping my bass.

Hmm, a list of favourites was promised, but I’m gonna have to put it off another night. I’m dead tired and I have this netball umpiring session all day tomorrow! By 1pm I’m gonna be a certified umpire. Yay!

Catch you on the flip side.

Over and out.

But You Can Get Me A Glass Of Red Wine So I Look Like I Have A Reason To Be Here

What an interesting night. I went to town with Tessa, Oliver and Jason and by 5pm I ended up in Hudsons with a mass bunch of Glenunga kids. I feel like I have been offloading my crap on to other people so much these days. Sure I’ve had my fair share of listening but I just haven’t talked about myself so much before than I have now. I’m super dooper tired and I’m sick of just sugar coating everything I talk about.

I now have Amelia and Emily over and we had a night of drinking (both nomnom and condensed milk) and then random singstarrring and now we’re watching True Blood. Man it’s good.

Well, seeing as this is post 100 I may as well do a list of some of my favorite things, so be prepared for the update. I can’t be bothered writing any more tonight.

Much love, dear readers.

Over and out.

Can You Help Me Unravel My Latest Mistake?

“There’s a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout ’cause you’re just as far in as you’ll ever be out
And these mistakes you’ve made, you’ll just make them again
If you only try turning around.“

You Take And You Turn It In To Honesty And Promise Me I’m Never Gonna See You Fake It

What makes me laugh is when some girls don’t understand what it’s like to have a completely platonic relationship with a boy and still be really close to them. It just utterly confuses them because in their little bubble either you like a boy and he likes you, or you like a boy and he doesn’t like you, or you just don’t like him. And there’s like… nothing else. Eugh, they should get out of their box.

Anyway I have a mass headache and I need sleep. I had a brilliant day, thanks to a couple of my best friends.

Over and out.

If I Could Take It All Back

Tell me what’s wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They wont stop ’til they’ve reached their dreams

Diet pills, surgery
Photoshop pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn’t make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what’s going on?
Tell me what’s going on
If you open your eyes
You’ll see that something is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There’s no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it’s world war III

No one cares, no one’s there
I guess we’re all just too damn busy
Money’s our first priority
It doesn’t make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what’s going on?
Tell me what’s going on
If you open your eyes
You’ll see that something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Is everybody going crazy?

Tell me what’s wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUV’s
While kids are starving in the streets
No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life’s unfair

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what’s going on
Tell me what’s going on
If you open your eyes
You’ll see that something
Something is wrong
Is everybody going Crazy?
Can anybody tell me what’s going on
Tell me what’s going on
If you open your eyes
You’ll see that something is wrong…

Because I can’t put anything into words at the moment.

Over and out.

The Laughter Penetrates The Silence, As Drunken Men Find Flaws In Science

I’ve escaped back into my music.  I’ve been singing non-stop for a couple of days. I would really love to see Neda dressed as David Bowie some time in the future.  Me and Jay are gonna dress as two of the guys out of KISS. Today was just work work work. I did my English in my first two lessons cause that was due today, and ended up writing a really fantastic piece as a text response to One Flew over the Cuckoo’s Nest. Physics was after lunch and that wasn’t terribly exciting. Then I had English, then I went home. Now I’m here.

Over and out.

Now That You’re Home Won’t You Rescue Me, I’ve Been Trying So Hard To Be Good Again

They are my anti-depressant, they are what keeps me going through the days… they are my friends. I am super-amazingly grateful for the lot of them. I got to spend time with a bunch of them this past week outside of school, and the real low I was fighting to get past has finally gone.

On Thursday I got to go to Tom’s house for dinner, had a crazy awesome time in the car park of the hospital pretending to be spies. We then got Chinese (I had actually been craving Chicken and Sweet Corn soup for the whole day, so it was even better) and just talked and did coupley things for the rest of the night (even though Mel hired Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging for us all to watch).

On Friday I hung out with a very new friend, his name is Joel and he was pretty much awesome. We went to the Chocolate Bean and while we were there we bumped into Tina and Stella while they were catching up with friends from their India trip. John soon arrived and I made him eat a spoonful of chocolate mousse and we had to run of so he could catch his bus (even though both of the boys didn’t wanna leave the shop, lazy bums). After John left off with Sean on the bus Joel and I walked to Digimob to get my phone re-repaired, but they advised me to keep it over the weekend, so I did. After that we split and I pretty much got drenched while walking home before Katty and her dad picked me up.

Once we all got to my house I started my work, I had to get Katty all glammed up for her formal, and my gosh! Wow! …I posted a photo on here before. It took ages trying to pin the dress up. As she had left everything to the last week the dress was a tad too big for her, so I had to pin it in three spots.

I then went into my angry/fuck life kind of bottomless pit. A whole load of fun that was. Saturday night I got to go out to Elliot’s 18th birthday party! It was an amazing night. Sunday I spent by myself sleeping, same with Monday.

Today I got to hang out with Jacob, Fi and Rhys. We went straight to Hudsons and spent over an hour in there just talking about anything and everything. We then trawled the mall, like the teenagers we are, stopping at JB’s, Shin Tokyo and then EzyDVD. Rhys wanted choc-coated nuts, but by the time we got to City Cross it had closed! We then crossed from the mall to the Hindley Street side of King William, and then Jacob and I decided to run back across. Mum called me and we could see her from her window, she waved and we waved and people were looking at us funnily. Oh man good times.

We then split and I got home, had a nice home cooked meal, a shower and now I’m feeling pretty good! Except I miss the rest of you. Come hang some time, okay?

Over and out.

You Ain’t Good To No-one Unless You’re Alive And Breathing

I’ve just been crying. My makeup has run everywhere. I don’t think school is worth going to on Monday. The reasons I used to go to school for don’t exist anymore.

Tomorrow will be a good day even though people are bailing on me left, right and centre. Fuck them. I tried to fix things, that didn’t work. I  just realised I wasn’t the one to break them in the first place. I give up, it’s not up to me any more.

Happy super late birthday to me. Apparently I’m getting presents tonight from family friends. Too bad I just feel like crawling up into a ball and hiding myself away for the next million years.

Hey, don’t write yourself off yet.
It’s only in your head. You feel left out or looked down on.
Just try your best, try everything you can.
And don’t you worry what they tell themselves when you’re away.

Hey, you know they’re all the same.
You know you’re doing better on your own, so don’t buy in.
Live right now. Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn’t matter if it’s good enough for someone else.

Hey, don’t write yourself off yet.
It’s only in your head. You feel left out or looked down on.
Just do your best, do everything you can.
And don’t you worry what the bitter hearts are gonna say.

It just takes some time, little girl you’re in the middle of the ride.

Over and out.

P.S. If you comment saying OH MY GOD I LOVE THAT SONG! I will hunt you down. Kthx.

My Best Friend…

…is a fucking stunner. Best hair, best dress, great makeup (she doesn’t need it at all!) and the coolest gloves.