No Stay, I’ll Watch You Fade Away

I have very, very little confidence in myself when it comes to actually driving and getting my P’s, a lot of things scare me about the roads and I can never quite calm myself enough to not make one mistake. I have driven around in the dark for 20 minutes without lights on. I have ran a red light. The only thing I can really drive, and drive well is the boat.

I love going to the river and just speeding along the glassy surface.

That’s where I’d really prefer to be right now. I got an 80% on my English oral presentation. Today at school was alright until I got to my last lesson, I heard some terrible news that sent me first into disbelief and then I got really sad. Somethings in this world are terrible, and the waste of a young life is one of those things. My deepest sympathies go out to all those close to Elliott.

Yesterday I saw Angus, Thongs And Perfect Snogging it was really good. Then I went shopping with my little sister and some of her friends. I had to buy photo frames so I got three gold ones for $9 from The Reject Shop. They suit my room completely!

Over and out.

Man, I Feel Like A Woman

 Its a little odd that I like the ’90s style more than any other. Disgusting, dirty and just damn ugly as it is I get a real kick out of dressing that little bit more ’90s every day. I do love this photo of Shania Twain, I really like her hair from back then. That is all.

Over and out.

Seventeen Forever

There are 6 months to go until my 17th birthday and I just had an idea for a themed party. Hear this, a biker theme. I pulled out my Harley Davidson tee-shirt and took a few photos with it on and I just thought to myself what a great excuse to pull out the aviators, fishnet/leather gloves, leather jackets and black bandannas. I had another idea too. To get everybody to bring their bicycles and ride around the streets.

Over and out.

Don’t Tell Me To Breathe Easy

 I don’t think I will be able to ever say this to his face and yes, I am terrified of what he will think if he ever sees this. I can’t actually conceal this any more though, I just seem to be feeling angrier and angrier because I can’t ever say what I want to. I have a fear of rejection, a fear of failure – Kakorrhaphiophobia. I avoid asking for things, at home or at work, because I blush and tear up whenever I see any kind of ‘Oh what do you want now?’ look from anyone. But I am sick of telling him that he’s great and that he deserves everything he wants because I don’t think he does anymore. I don’t like being led on and feeling like I’m second to an obsession, an unrealistic obsession with someone that won’t ever see what he wants her to see in him. I hate knowing that when he acts so depressed, so ‘I’m not a great person’, he is only fishing for compliments and sympathy. I am a compassionate person and I know he is taking advantage of that. I don’t want people to take advantage of that. I have already fucked up any chance of a relationship with someone I will always be close to this year. I don’t want it to happen again.

Oh and even though I’m not in the mood for it -
Over and out.

Temptation; Then Sin.

Lust  Gluttony  Greed  Laziness  Wrath  Envy  Pride

 

As I am a catholic girl I was baptised, went to Sunday school, did my holy communion, the works. I just never got it. I was too young when I did my communion which is why I now find it hard to believe (yet I do in my own way.. kind of) in something that is never seen but supposedly so awesome. You see so many disturbing things these days you hardly ever hear of any ‘miracles’. I know that I am tempted into doing a fair few questionable things, sometimes I can resist but most of the time I cannot.

I think because I have read Seduction and have been reading Desire, both by Amanda Quick I have started having weird romantic dreams, the man involved is incredible, handsome, with perfect blonde hair and he smells just right. Its terrible because I do know who he is, I think its a mix of three guys I know. Lusting after someone, to me, is so much fun.

Today I did a 9 to 5 at work. Michael and I went out to lunch, I bought foundation and a whole lot of junk food for a Girls Night I am hosting on Saturday night. I was also whinging a whole lot, walking up and down the mall in heeled boots is horrible, I think I got a blister.

Over and out.

 

Attack Of The Scissors

So we went food shopping. I haven’t done any more homework. I got a fringe. Like it?

 

I can wear sunglasses with out looking stupid now!

Over and out.

What Happened To My Days Off?

Procrastination is a bit like masturbation;
its fun at the time but its only until afterwards you realise you have just screwed yourself.

I have just about done half of my Maths B assignment. I also have a Physics practical, a whole English comparative texts essay to write, an oral prestentation I wanted to fix and a whole lot of IT worksheets I wanted to get finished. I thought I’d have that all done by now. Apart from trying to get some homework done today I have taken some photos and tried to clean up my room. The internet is wonderful yet a terrible temptation. I really should try and get something else done.

Over and out.

Here Comes The Bride

So Kathleen had a dream about me last night. She dreamt I was getting married, she didn’t see whom too, she just saw my dress. She described it as a summer strapless dress (not a gown) that was white then it melted into green. This got me really interested in bridal wear and I just wanted to put this picture of my cousin Natasha’s gown up here. I think it is one of the most stunning bridal gowns I have seen.

Over and out.

Demolition And Renovation

I decided to start this blog again. I don’t know whether it is because I am tired of being the same old boring me or I’m just angry and dissapointed because something silly. I do know I’m not going to change the way I think, I am just going to edit what I am going to say a bit more carefully instead of saying everything I think. Most of the trouble I get into is because of something I say and most of the trouble I get out of is because of something I say. Opinions are a powerful thing and mine change frequently. My thoughts are messy and to get everything I want to say out is hard when I feel uncomfortable around people I have just met or people I feel I need to impress. My mother thinks I’m a rude person, I know that’s not true, its just another one of those ‘I feel uncomfortable and I don’t want to be here’ moments. I also exaggerate my emotions, not too much but enough to change the way I feel about little things, and sometimes about people. I don’t think I’ve written everything in this paragraph right, but someday after I fix a few things and I will able to put things right. There I go again just rambling on about me.

The October long weekend was an absolute blast. Kara came around on Wednesday then we left on Thursday at about 10am. On the way up we watched movies(and I am really glad to say I didn’t involve myself in one game of Eye Spy the whole holiday). We eventually caught up to the Creanie gang because something with Chongy and Donna’s tires went wrong so they spent a lot of time off the road to fix it. That night after we’d set up everything and settled we just sat around the fire and caught up with everybody. I found Jules trying to sneak up on people around the fire while talking on a megaphones funny. Kara found a ‘chicken embryo’ looking shape in the stars that night.

On Friday we did the Chase Range Spectacular it was a whole lot of fun. Going up The Druid was easier then ever. The Car Wash had water in it! Here’s a photo of Mark going through it (after a whole lot of taunting and teasing from my dad). He did the whole thing with a can in his hand and didn’t spill one drop.

On Saturday morning dad took this photo of clouds enveloping the Chase -

That day we went to Merna Mora Station and did a fairly easy track. Dad was speeding along tracks half the time, I was just happy to have the wind (yes thats right, dust free wind, one of the many perks of being at the front of the pack in a tag-a-long 4wdtrek) blowing on my face, and have my hand out the window. Coming back after Merna Mora we went through Brachina Gorge, 5 or so years back it was full of water and wildlife. It was dry this year.

On Sunday we did Sky Trek, it is still amazing as ever. Here are some group shots we got at the highest point in the Flinders Ranges –

On Monday we packed up in the ravaging wind it was horrible. Then we mucked around for a couple of hours (extreme piggy-backs and extreme hugs FTW!), put out the fires and left. We got to Kara’s around 5.30pm (thats around 121 hours spent together consecutively) then went home and unpacked. I had a terrific time, and I got 25 more minutes (out of 50 hours) on my log book!

Over and out.

Come my little pretty one, my pretty one..

Mah mah mah my sherona. x]

Good moods don’t last long. If anybody want’s to buy a SanDisk 4 GB microSD card off me you can have it brand new for $25. I should be packing but I want to tell you all about last night.

Yasmine’s 17th Birthday. The first birthday party I consider to be a party. =D

I spent the night dancing, drinking punch and flirting like mad. LOL! Not the last one but.. Something has changed. It was a great night, the first song on the playlist was a Hot Chocolate song, so obviously the night was gonna be good. We only watched one movie.. Van Helsing. I didn’t watch most of it. Too drowsy.

So many good memorys. So many funny ones. Meg.. Just so you know.. You are loved. x]

I can’t wait to get the photos off Yasmine.

Ahhhhh mannnnnn.

Toodle-loo.

Over and out.